Aunt
have you ever had an experience where you have to stay in a place where you feel like you don’t belong? or simply just a feeling where you cant put the things into perspectives because your not comfortable of the situation that your in….It’s hard, the things that make me more of an able person makes me more less of an able individual…that is the sentence i can describe my life with the people that i love, the people i called….. family.
when my family request of something for sure i cant drop it…and the most painful thing is that they put directions in my mind…the simple 4 W’s: Where, Why, When, What……they can sense my heaviness when they ask me to do so….and perhaps that might be the exact explanation why they don’t frequently ask me anything….the last thing they asked me is to stay with my aunt in my paternal side which I’m not close to but i decided to obey my beloved parents and from that night i learned and felt sometimes we need to be with someone we don’t want and not because of the reward that we get but the things we discover and hoping it would change our heart..creating a simple bond… i mean hoping to get a bond between two individuals… connecting hearts.
At first it was sad…indeed it is but the situation i was in was unexplainable…i feel mad, sad, lonely while looking at the city lights from the hospital window…. who wouldn’t be sad..? it was Saturday night and everything and everyone was in the mood for fun even though I wasn’t into night life still I value my little pleasures in life but as the night continue I woke up for the second time from my slumber in the hospital room sofa …my aunt is calling me…wanted me to help her take a sip of water and chest physiotherapy…my aunt was hospitalized because of her digestive problems and was post OP 2 days already and still recovering.
I didnt say i never like her but I’m not comfortable with her because of the family history we had……I’m a Nurse i care for those people regardless of their race, status and power in the society but that time while i was caring for my aunt i feel inconsiderate but trying my best to connect our hearts…and i hope i did. i don’t want to be superficial and right now I’m still learning to understand her as a woman, as person, as an aunt.
About me
i know life is not all about sweet laughter, tears of joy, and sugar coated memories there are some part that makes us wanna get on our knees and just sit in the floor exhausted and having a thought "we cant go on". this is the kind of story i wanna share combining the sad and the joys of life. the daily experience that i have to go through of this so called Life....the Life to some says it's a gift that gives them pain and to some a Life that they take for granted
